This may sound like old news, but I wanted to come here again and publicly tell everyone how thankful I am for the support I am receiving from all of you. Through this site and face-to-face. So many people have helped me out emotionally, physically and spiritually, (and financially). I am constantly astounded by how many people care for me. I really don;t feel deserving. Like, I am not so special, why should they do these things for me. But I know it helps to help out. If that makes sense.
I recently had a very large (well, very large to me, and probably to the giver too) monetary sum donated to me. I was speechless. Nik and I just stared at the check, not quite sure what to make of it. I immediately wrote a thank you note (and if you guys got the note and are ok with it, I would love to embarrass you publicly here :) ) and sent it out from work. I am still trying to decide what to do with the money, but I know it will come in handy when I am out of sick leave and vacation time.
And that brings me to another topic. I am struggling to make a decision and I need some opinions. I have been talking here about getting a wig. And that was not always my desire, to get a wig. But I had someone bring up that it is nice to go somewhere like the grocery store and not have to worry about people automatically knowing (or suspecting) you have cancer. And that is true. I get some weird looks of recognition when it dawns on someone why I could possibly chosen to wear that scarf with that shirt. So thus started the wig hunt. But now I am not sure. I feel like I will wear it for such a short time, and it is such an expense, wouldn't it just be better to save the money and live with being bald for a few more months? After all, everyone already knows I am bald, whats the big deal? But then, I have also been given money to cover such an expense (although I did find out that our insurance will NOT compensate a wig) and had several other offers to cover it. Would it be deceptive to not get a wig at this point? I DON"T KNOW!!! Help me out internets.
Oh, and I know that a LOT more people read this blog than comment, so, please drop me a line if you stop by. I would love to know who is reading.
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I think there's absolutely nothing wrong with making yourself more comfortable . . . and if you want a wig, even if just a few months, and it makes this time of your life easier (even if just to avoid extra glances in the grocery store), then go for it and don't feel guilty about it. If you feel the payoff isn't worth the expense, and it won't overall really affect your happiness/comfort level that much, then don't worry about it, and don't feel guilty about not getting one. Just do whatever will make you the happiest, and I know everyone who cares about you will support and be happy about your decision!
ReplyDeletehmm that is a hard decision but I say go for it if you really want one. If it is what you want then you deserve it!
ReplyDeleteYou should at least try some on and see how you like the feel of them against your bald head! You might not like wearing them at all. We all just want you to be happy!
ReplyDeleteI agree with all of the above. Check them out, see if you like them, and see if it makes you more comfortable to wear them. I think you are beautiful either way! Yay! xoxo
ReplyDeleteLena, at this point, I say do whatever is going to make you happy and comfortable... No matter what it costs. I feel like Steve and I haven't done enough to support you. If there is anything at all, seriously anything, let us know. We love you guys and pray for you!
ReplyDeleteI'm agree with everyone. Do whatever you think it's good for yourself, later on, the wig would be a part of your memory of your life.:) I still keep mine, every time when I see it, it reminds me of the day I had gone through.
ReplyDeleteWell lets see.. besides what everyone else said, which I totally agree with... If everyone already knows about it, and the random looks in public don't bug ya much then don't do it! You said your hair will grow back soon??? how soon?? I say if it's coming back soon, wear the scarf with honor :D Ya look beautiful no matter what!
ReplyDeletewow, that is a hard decision. I can see both sides. If it were me, and I could financially do it, I would do it. Why not? Then you can decide if you want to go somewhere being inconspicious. And once your hair grows back, maybe you'll still wear it once in awhile for fun- when you want something new and different. JMO. :O)
ReplyDeleteLena, just get a cheap wig and wear it when you go out. I've been there. I know. Swap Meet had them at 30 bucks. That was a few years ago but it doesn't hurt to check it out. But whatever you do, DO NOT LEAVE YOUR WIG IN THE CAR!! If it's hot outside then your wig will melt. Good Luck and Stay Strong. Your doing great everytime I see you. You look sexy. If you want more info or you just want to beat me you know where to find me. Love ya, Rachelle
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