This may sound like old news, but I wanted to come here again and publicly tell everyone how thankful I am for the support I am receiving from all of you. Through this site and face-to-face. So many people have helped me out emotionally, physically and spiritually, (and financially). I am constantly astounded by how many people care for me. I really don;t feel deserving. Like, I am not so special, why should they do these things for me. But I know it helps to help out. If that makes sense.
I recently had a very large (well, very large to me, and probably to the giver too) monetary sum donated to me. I was speechless. Nik and I just stared at the check, not quite sure what to make of it. I immediately wrote a thank you note (and if you guys got the note and are ok with it, I would love to embarrass you publicly here :) ) and sent it out from work. I am still trying to decide what to do with the money, but I know it will come in handy when I am out of sick leave and vacation time.
And that brings me to another topic. I am struggling to make a decision and I need some opinions. I have been talking here about getting a wig. And that was not always my desire, to get a wig. But I had someone bring up that it is nice to go somewhere like the grocery store and not have to worry about people automatically knowing (or suspecting) you have cancer. And that is true. I get some weird looks of recognition when it dawns on someone why I could possibly chosen to wear that scarf with that shirt. So thus started the wig hunt. But now I am not sure. I feel like I will wear it for such a short time, and it is such an expense, wouldn't it just be better to save the money and live with being bald for a few more months? After all, everyone already knows I am bald, whats the big deal? But then, I have also been given money to cover such an expense (although I did find out that our insurance will NOT compensate a wig) and had several other offers to cover it. Would it be deceptive to not get a wig at this point? I DON"T KNOW!!! Help me out internets.
Oh, and I know that a LOT more people read this blog than comment, so, please drop me a line if you stop by. I would love to know who is reading.