Thursday, October 1, 2009

Yes, I went home early. I just couldn't work through it. I didn't sleep like I wanted too, but I did sit on the couch and watch 5 hours of TV. It only kind of helped. Mostly the food that Jake and Nik brought back helped. It was a spontaneous party at our house last night, I just wish I had been feeling a little bit better for it. I am always glad to see my friends though, so thanks for coming and seeing me (and by me I mean Jake, cause I know thats why you were really there. I just bask in the glory that is Jake).

I feel much better now. I may have caught up on sleep by my next treatment.

I really can't express how ready I am for this all to be done. To stop feeling like crap every two weeks, to get my hair back, to get my life back to normal. In fact, I am interested in what "normal" will look like. I'm not sure I have seen it before.


  1. I'm not so sure that "normal" exists for anyone, but hang in there Lena! I know that when I was on my last stretch of my mission I was getting more and more tired and the end seemed just within reach and yet too far to grasp. That's when I prayed for my "second wind", like those who run a marathon sometimes get on that last stretch of the race so that they can finish strong. The Lord will give you the strength to finish. Just hang in there, we're all cheering for you. I Love Ya!!!

  2. I'm glad that you are feeling a little better. I agree... not sure what normal really is. I think that normal constantly changes. I don't think that it's possible to see the world or your life in the same light after going through something like this. Normal will be even better than you remember it!!

  3. I know what you mean about what "normal is" - since we've had this for years, it's like- what is normal? cause I've had cancer for a long time and didnt' know it, what will life feel like without it? - congrats on being done so soon. I'm excited to read your posts after cancer.