Friday, May 29, 2009

Possibly out of desperation

I mentioned before that my hair is falling out pretty quickly. I thought I would have a little more time with it, but that seems not to be the case. So, after about 4 days of being afraid to touch my hair and having hand fulls of it come out when I did (some of you have witnessed this), I decided that it would be easier to manage, and less traumatic while it is still falling out, if I cut it short. I know, I know, "but Lena, your hair is so short already!" Yes, and no. I agree that my hair is short, but it was not short enough. I touch it too much.

I spent about a day thinking about this with a friend at work. Looking up pictures, discussing pros and cons to each style. Deciding if each one was really short enough to accomplish my goal. Finally we decided on a couple that looked reasonable.

My SIL Amy came over for an emergency cut and we were both a little emotional when it started coming off. In the middle of the cut we were visited by the the entire Young Women's program in our ward which includes one of my good friends. They filled up my small apartment for a little while while they watched.

When she finished, my first impression was that it was short, really short. But I was not as shocked as I thought I would be. After all, I had my hair pretty short in high school. But then it started to sink in. And I realized that I had worked pretty hard to get out of what I looked like in high school. Then I showered to get all the itchy hair off me and put in this scalp treatment that Amy gave me (which, by the way, smells like something organic is rotting and you tried to cover it up with Lysol) and it worked like a mousse to successfully style my hair like a 90's super-lesbian. Sorry if that offends anyone, but that was my first impression. And it made me sad. I looked about 10 pounds smaller, and I hated it. I was really upset for quite a while. I was freaking out about what I was going to do at work when everyone saw me. I tried to fine a hat or scarf or something to hide it. And it smelled terrible. :(

That night I wore a beanie to bed to try and keep the smell from the pillow, and when I woke up it had smashed my hair down enough that I was not so upset at how I looked. And everyone at work assured me it was cute. Even a couple of members commented. And now I am fine with it. It is still weird to not feel my hair when I move my head, to feel the wind on my actual scalp, and when I first see my reflection in something. But I am getting used to it. And who knows how long it will stick around anyway.

When I went to show my parents Dad took a couple pictures of me and they turned out better than the ones I took, so here is my new look!

21 comments:

  1. That's exactly what i would have done if i was in your situation. Just cut it all off!! it's cute, don't worry about it. :)

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  2. Lena, I think it's super cute! And you don't look like a lesbian at all. You look trendy and chic.

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  3. now there hair will not impede your progress on your ninja training!!

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  4. I like it. And it isn't like your look in High school, this is much different.
    So, are we hoping your hair comes back curly? Cause that could be kinda cool. . . :)

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  5. I like your new hair! I can't wait to see it in person. You look cute all the time anyway. And Nik - she was mine first!

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  6. Lena I love your hair! I am so wanting a change from my most recent change. Maybe I will go this short and we can be twinners! (Is that how you spell that)
    You do look super cute and I love that it has a edge to it. In fact I think you look cute in all your styles.
    Okay I will stop gushing...

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  7. It looks good! And I think you will be glad it is short for an easier transition.

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  8. You look B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L.!! And hey what's wrong with your high school look? You were dead sexy :) Now lets bring back the bright red spikes, that was my favorite :)

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  9. Love it, Lena! I would probably freak out just like you, but you look so good so don't worry about it. Love the lesbian comment. you crack me up!

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  10. I love that you started this blog to keep everyone updated. I "lurk" but don't usually post. :)

    Good idea, going with the short hair. It's a cute look on you and a good way to transition.

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  11. ROFL "super-lesbian"...LOL!!! You're so funny. ;) You look great, Lena! You rock the short hair. I wanna see a pic of you in your sexy beanies. :)

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  12. So so so so super cute. I love it. You can totally pull off this look. I just want to hug you.

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  13. I love it!! So cute Lena!!

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  14. It looks amazing! You've totally got the face shape and bone structure to pull off short hair. I tell you what, if mine weren't naturally curly I'd be right behind you.

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  15. Lena I love it! You have such a pretty face that you can pull anything off! Seriously.

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  16. Lena- Beautiful as always!!

    Dad2

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  17. You look like Tinkerball. Isn't it great for Peter Pan ... my son.. hee hee Looks nice.

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  18. You look adorable! Ask the chemo clinic for where people get the best wigs---I've seen some way cute ones on ladies. Made me think I needed one for "bad hair days"! Best wishes.

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  19. You're an amazing woman - such a great attitude and it so cute on you!

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  20. you'd fit right in at bryn mawr with that hair cut! of course, not every bryn mawr girl is a lesbian - hopefully that's obvious ;) ps, sometimes it's fun to pretend to be a lesbian, it really throws people! probably not what you're going for, though ... the ninja training idea is much better.

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